Oh, honey. It breaks my heart to see you like this.
I know, I know. It’s easier—much easier—to let the rational side of you take a vacation. It’s easy to work yourself into these fits of “I’m not good enough.” It’s easy to let yourself sink into these places.
Shhhhh. There, there. I know. I know.
You can’t let yourself do this. You can’t let yourself think this way.
And even though I know it’s probably impossible, even though you maybe can’t, you have to try.
You have to stop thinking about what could be or what could have been and start thinking about what is. You have to count all of your blessings and hold them close. You’ve got to try and just take deep breaths…please.
There, that’s it. In and out, in and out.
I know. I know, it’s probably impossible for you to do what should come as second nature to you, but instead is out of your reach. It’s hard not to worry when so much could go wrong. I’m not going to lie to you—it’s a scary world out there. But there’s so, so much that could go right. There’s so much that’s going right in your life right now. You just can’t see it.
There you go, that’s it. Just keep breathing.
Please, just keep breathing.
You are so loved even though you might not always accept it. Maybe you will never accept it but please, you have to trust me on this one. There are so many people who love you so, so much, even if you can’t see it.
Not in spite of your scars, not in spite of your baggage. Because of them. Believe me. You may not see what everyone sees in you, but I do. I always will.
Please just hold on, even if it’s just for tonight. And then, tomorrow, you can hold on all over again. And I’ll hold on with you.
Hold on to everything you love. Think of the good moments. Breathe in and think of everything good. Take it into you; wrap yourself in it until there’s nothing left but warmth and light.
Breathe out and think of everything bad. Let the darkness swirl and then dissipate. Forget about the world for a while and soon it will be nothing more than a bad memory.
I believe in you, I believe in your strength.
Please just hold on.